Absurd Chaos

what is the truth. The revelation  the Illumination,  How can it be found, where, when and why.  Through the sky in springtime  flowers rise to greet the sun. Sits a girl  on a hill smiling ablaze  with sun fire fire sun. The illumination is the sun even in the moon is the sun.  Sun is dead and vividly  alive. Manifestoes of the sun, it's here has always  been  near, the sun burns an ode to fire the sun kisses  an ode to love the sun rises  an ode to tree the sun sets an ode to death.

Vivid images of a faded dream A ruin of nothing The taste of dust and happiness in the air A ruin of everything The smell of you on my hands Droplets of sweet blood left in my wake A shattered glass was all it took To exile my love away A shattered glass that was once a depiction A tangible illusion left to decay The sound of sour laughter and a thought Why is it, that after all this time This does not Hurt.

Poison is attractive. To me, at least. There’s an appeal in Darkness; for light is abundant. But everything should be a choice; because, at the end of the day, there’s nothing more attractive than Freedom; and that’s when Darkness ceases to be appealing and poison becomes a prison; a perpetual state of toxicity and waste. Very apocalyptic and ugly. The bad kind of apocalyptic and ugly, the one we should stay far away from in order to maintain our Freedom, our own State of Mind. In order to maintain Ourselves. Bask in the Darkness, but, don’t drown in it.  Photo by me. 

When I knew how much I could know yet how little; I stopped wanting to know; how could you attain infinite knowledge when you're just a finite being? How could you handle living with the need of drying oceans and only succeed at drinking half a puny lake? When I knew how little I could ever know; my heart cried and my soul dried its tears; for the suffering is ever in the interest of my soul

we were not meant to go there. today, Sarah and I, were suppsosed to go to Toledo ! We were going there for the day with minimal budget (ie that would only cover food costs) and we ( I ) got something wrong, we went to the train station thinking we could use our transportation cards and go to Toledo for free, when in reality it was the BUS that was for free which was in another part of the city. It was already late and raining. But the museum had a free entrance. So YAY MUSEUM!  we also bought a selfie stick especifically for the trip that never happened and we couldn´t just waste it! Solana