Absurd Chaos

what is the truth. The revelation  the Illumination,  How can it be found, where, when and why.  Through the sky in springtime  flowers rise to greet the sun. Sits a girl  on a hill smiling ablaze  with sun fire fire sun. The illumination is the sun even in the moon is the sun.  Sun is dead and vividly  alive. Manifestoes of the sun, it's here has always  been  near, the sun burns an ode to fire the sun kisses  an ode to love the sun rises  an ode to tree the sun sets an ode to death.

We’re always trying to let go we forget to let in. To let in the hot lava of emotions, feelings and thoughts. To let in forgiveness and vengeance. To let in happiness and anger. To let our selves in. The entirety of us in. The human experience, the whole journey, the road. It is when we truly let our whole selves in, we start to see the self clearly; how all feelings and thoughts are legitimate, how everything is part of Nature, part of them, part of us. There’s no wrong or right feeling; Nature is angry, happy, vengeful and peaceful. One does not cancel the other, but we can most certainly neutralise it. Just like Nature herself does. She burns down Pompeii but then gives us a flowing stream nourishing us in her wicked ways. Wicked. Nature is Wicked. Wickedly good. Wickedly bad. All-encompassing. And so are we, children of Nature, intensely wicked, vengefully wicked, Beautifully wicked.

Coming back From the dark candy shop With the grey swirlies ice cream Cones And black Lollies I’m full I’m sick I’m feeling like myself I’ve come to identify me By the road back From that candy Shop To the eden garden Of colourful rose petals I’m not there I’m not here I’m Coming Back

What is wrong with you? He said He looked her over. She was wearing her best outfit yet; new pumpkin coloured coat, the new black skinny that made her look taller, new brown quirky ankle boots and a band t-shirt: The Droogs (she made up the band, created the logo and printed on the tee). It's the best because it's the newest. what do you mean what is wrong with me?! It's the same old song. You're lost. Yes! Again! Alright, let's retrace your steps. The earliest memory I have is of the abandoned green kiosk- Yellow. It's green today! Okay. So I was standing in front of the green kiosk holding my favourite bottle of nothing when I heard a low moan… The usual bed bug? Yes. Poor soul. Maybe we should get her a Doctor. Bed bug doctors are extinct. Oh. And so I turned around and headed towards her… fancy an ice cream cone? Sure, but we'll regret this later, it's very cold! She smiled. I asked her what is wrong? She said she’s been broken a...

Hey girl lots of changes ahead like you need to be warned? you think you finally came back to a permanent (for now) land you feel safe and secure after an awful year full of death and loss and changes they're still going to happen two more deaths and three more changes they will break you traumatise you give you depression and severe anxiety but please remind me in five years to live in the moment I already loved, it wasn't too scary I already lost, I'm still recovering I've lived the worst day of your life you should have been there! I needed your know-it-all ass to tell me it's okay to remind me that it's not my fault but that's just a fantasy because I know how guilty you are now even before it happens. remember that thing that haunted us for 10 years? remember those bad dreams and longful memories? we should have done something about them, didn't we? did we fail? did i fail? but what is failure? I don't know. to many...