a letter to myself 5 years ago
Hey girl lots of changes ahead like you need to be warned? you think you finally came back to a permanent (for now) land you feel safe and secure after an awful year full of death and loss and changes they're still going to happen two more deaths and three more changes they will break you traumatise you give you depression and severe anxiety but please remind me in five years to live in the moment I already loved, it wasn't too scary I already lost, I'm still recovering I've lived the worst day of your life you should have been there! I needed your know-it-all ass to tell me it's okay to remind me that it's not my fault but that's just a fantasy because I know how guilty you are now even before it happens. remember that thing that haunted us for 10 years? remember those bad dreams and longful memories? we should have done something about them, didn't we? did we fail? did i fail? but what is failure? I don't know. to many...